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[23 Aug 2008|02:06pm] i just have a lot on my mind thing have been perfect lately i feel like i totaly figured myself out. you werent even close it sad but you werent. my friends you weaved your way out all of you. ALL THE SHIT YOU TALK shuve it up your asses. Dont you hate it when people do that yeah i do so why the fuck you all doing it. just breath there dumb and think they can do what they want but if i did it to them or was doing it how dare i right? fuck it. sometimes i just want to say stuff to people and im like no why start a fight or why say something i just want to be like say it or dont you know like dont be all shadddddy about it and fake. I also dont like people being so rude, get away she mine. and stop going into my past your mad annoying breathes that felt good. down on the floor

[29 May 2008|05:50pm] I think to much...... stop thinking just say its okay its not what it is at all or it would be different i hope your just not lieing because were so close you would tell me right i wouldnt hate you... uhhh im over thinking..... down on the floor

[28 May 2008|02:05pm] lalala work so stressful but not... Just be chillen around doing what I always do who I like to hang with I end up with them everyday but I enjoy it.. Played wiffle ball yesterday and had a picnic yes a picnic okay.. Its really weird but I know its fine. Its just that well its complicated. But then you do something again piss me off whatever you dont have consideration im excited to watch my life this summer... i mean look at all the change in like  4 months i know it was good you couldnt handle me there has to be a fight with me still sad to see things end but so amazing to see this new start I went to Ptown this weekend so much fun!!! Soft skin, red lips, so kissable Hard to resist so touchable Too good to deny it Ain't no big deal, it's innocent <3 hehe down on the floor

[17 May 2008|03:38pm] In the past few monthss I have learned so much. I have found out I am either Bi or a lesbian its complicated I have told my mother. I have met new people who i am deeply found of i hope i dont loose them i really fucked up espically her. I have grew so close to my bestfriend it is unbelievable i love her so much. I do have an angry problem I really need to get help with that. I have lost friends but im not worried because thats part of life. Im a manger now ha i grow up so fast what is wrong with me. i have learned you have to think before you do things and treat people with respect and not complain i have hurt so many people and im so sorry. please dont hate me. its hard letting go and i suck at it i always have. its going to be a big change but im ready for it. i think. no matter how i know its good its sad so sad, i will miss you you taught me so much and i dont regret a moment i dont. a new notebook a new start. im ready.v down on the floor

[27 Apr 2008|10:48pm] Okay so everything isnt perfect why does it have to be for real. Like im perfectly content with this sort of i may say a lot of shit but i dont mean it is it smart prob but so what. Im not so confused any more i have more of a grasp and im back to believing everything does happen for a reason so i know it wll come again i know i see it in the eyes in the emotions,. i dont like the changes but i dont have a choice its okay Hey love, I wont hurt you Night will come and go I wont hurt you You'll never dream alone yeah wish i could find this. i just want to feel secure or a little change i change to make someone happy 1 lonely hearts down on the floor

[21 Apr 2008|11:15pm] WOW you know the curtain closed but a new play starts. Im so happy like things make me miserable but its weird how you think something was perfect and how you can ignore something but you really just need to listen to your heart its smarter than your head thats a fact mmm<3 down on the floor

[15 Apr 2008|10:37pm] Im  so all over the place it drives me insane. I have so much stuff I would like to just say Like I may be a bitch but im the most caring fucking bitch you ever meet. im so done with it though gets me know wheere alll the money i gave ha no where to help not like i need help btu like i just gave gave gave stupid me ever start to realize all the bad things after like i have been in a bubble now im in the world its shocking but refreshing dont care about anyone opinion well i do but whatever down on the floor

[27 Mar 2008|06:36pm] For all of this Im better off with out you! FUCK THIS SHADY SHIT ;-) i dont give a shit what you guys think of that FUCKING TALK ABOUT ME!! DO IT NOT LIKE YOU A.LL HAVENT BUT CONTINUE IT YOU WANT TO MAKE ME THE CENTER OF YOUR WORLD FUCKING THANK YOU FUCKERS 1 lonely hearts down on the floor

[26 Mar 2008|05:23pm] Life is out of control. enjoy life. one day at a time. mind my keeps thinking it doesn't stop. my heart keeps feeling things my body feels run down. life  oh life you killed me i dont think you get it. no one does you made cmmetns to people thought you understood me guess not guess everyone lies and hides shit. whatever im over it thanks for being back stabbing down on the floor

going insane [04 Mar 2008|09:20am] cant handle  going to break down breaking down emotional vomiting crying stressed smiles fake laughs fake feels right feels wrong tired worn going crazy cant deal with this why did i do this i did it for good reason is it a good reason dont jsudge me dont hate me love me you do love me i love you but then why oh boy 3 lonely hearts down on the floor

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